In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Be the Change.”
Hey there. Today (well, yesterday here), I finished my 30 day challenge. What challenge, you say?
Well, 30 days ago, I thought to myself, why not start doing something about myself. Since I was active on Instagram, I decided to do a #iamthankful challenge, whereby I post what I am thankful for for 30 days. I got some pretty encouraging responses towards the end of the challenge, for which I am amazed and thankful as well.
I hoped to boost my own self, and to keep myself aware of the blessings that I have. Quite a few of my friends said that they enjoyed reading what I wrote each day. That I should extend the challenge another 30 days, perhaps. But I think that something good should not outlive its usefulness or its meaning. Then it becomes pointless. (Am I making any sense here?)
Plus, I think I was trying to wrack my brains thinking of something different to write each day. Which was NOT easy, I tell you. And along the way, I made some self-discoveries.
Like how people only find me when they need me. I sort of feel like a personal shrink sometimes. I’m not sure if I should take it as a personal compliment, or run away screaming and never look back. My concerns are hardly ever listened to, I only ever seem to be listening to other people’s dilemmas and giving advice (solicited or otherwise).
Then I had decided to put myself first, and let them go. Not because I am being selfish (well, I was), but because it was starting to affect me. I always resented the fact that I was being used. And that I was usually the first (if not only) one to make an effort to keep friendships alive.
I am not saying this to be negative. Or to complain, though it feels like it.
I am saying this because someday, I hope my words will help someone like me take the plunge and be the change they want to be. I was cowardly and scared, thinking I had to be the “good” friend all the time. When all this time, they should be making an effort in the relationship, too. Nothing one-sided is ever going to last. It takes two hands to clap, buddy.
And so, my journey of self-discovery starts.
This is not the only change I want to be. I foresee many changes in the future. Some good, some bad. But I hope I can come out from this a stronger and healthier version of myself.
I want to look back in a few years, and be proud of myself on what I’ve done.
Do what makes you happy. Eliminate the things in your life that bring you down. Remember that change is from within. I cannot help anyone if I do not help myself first.
I hope you do the same too.